Heaven is the decision I must make.
Heaven is the decision I must make.
In this world, Heaven is a choice because here we believe
there are alternatives to choose between. We think that all things have
an opposite, and what we want we choose. If Heaven exists, there must be
hell as well, for contradiction is the way we make what we perceive and
what we think is real. Creation knows no opposite. But here is
opposition part of being “real.”
It is this strange perception of the truth that makes the
choice of Heaven seem to be the same as the relinquishment of hell. It
is not really thus. Yet what is true in God's creation cannot enter here
unless it is reflected in some form the world can understand. Truth
cannot come where it could only be perceived with fear, for this would
be the error truth can be brought to illusions. Opposition makes the
truth unwelcome, and it cannot come.
Choice is the obvious escape from what appears as
opposites. Decision lets one of conflicting goals become the aim of
effort and expenditure of time. Without decision, time is but a waste
and effort dissipated. It is spent for nothing in return. And time goes
by without results. There is no sense of gain, for nothing is
accomplished; nothing learned.
You need to be reminded that you think a thousand choices
are confronting you when there is really only one to make. And even this
but seems to be a choice. Do not confuse yourself with all the doubts
that myriad decisions would induce. You make but one. And when that one
is made, you will perceive it was no choice at all, for truth is true
and nothing else is real. There is no opposite to choose instead. There
is no contradiction to the truth.
Choosing depends on learning. But the truth cannot be
learned but only recognized. In recognition its acceptance lies, and as
it is accepted, it is known. But knowledge is beyond the goals we seek
to teach within the framework of this course. Ours are teaching goals to
be attained through learning how to reach them, what they are, and what
they offer you. Decisions are the outcome of your learning, for they
rest on what you have accepted as the truth of what you are and what
your needs must be.
In this insanely complicated world, Heaven appears to take
the form of choice rather than merely being what it is. Of all the
choices you have tried to make, this is the simplest, most definitive,
the prototype of all the rest, the one which settles all decisions. If
you could decide the rest, this one remains unsolved. But when you solve
this one, the others are resolved with it, for all decisions but conceal
this one by taking different forms. Here is the final and the only
choice in which is truth accepted or denied.
So we begin today considering the choice that time was made
to help us make. Such is its holy purpose, now transformed from the
intent you gave it, that it be a means for demonstrating hell is real,
hope changes to despair, and life itself must in the end be overcome by
death. In death alone are opposites resolved, for ending opposition is
to die. And thus salvation must be seen as death, for life is seen as
conflict. To resolve the conflict is to end your life as well.
These mad beliefs can gain unconscious hold of great
intensity and grip the mind with terror and anxiety so strong that it
will not relinquish its ideas about its own protection. It must be saved
from salvation, threatened to be safe, and magically armored against
truth. And these decisions are made unaware to keep them safely
undisturbed, apart from question and from reason and from doubt.
Heaven is chosen consciously. The choice cannot be made
until alternatives are accurately seen and understood. All that is
veiled in shadows must be raised to understanding to be judged again,
this time with Heaven's help, and all mistakes in judgment which the
mind had made before are open to correction as the truth dismisses them
as causeless. Now are they without effects. They cannot be concealed
because their nothingness is recognized.
The conscious choice of Heaven is as sure as is the ending
of the fear of hell when it is raised from its protective shield of
unawareness and is brought to light. Who can decide between the clearly
seen and the unrecognized? Yet who can fail to make a choice between
alternatives when only one is seen as valuable, the other as a wholly
worthless thing, a but imagined source of guilt and pain? Who hesitates
to make a choice like this? And shall we hesitate to choose today?
We make the choice for Heaven as we wake and spend five
minutes making sure that we have made the one decision that is sane. We
recognize we make a conscious choice between what has existence and what
has nothing but an appearance of the truth. Its pseudo-being, brought to
what is real, is flimsy and transparent in the light. It holds no terror
now, for what was made enormous, vengeful, pitiless with hate demands
obscurity for fear to be invested there. Now it is recognized as but a
foolish, trivial mistake.
Before we close our eyes in sleep tonight, we reaffirm the
choice that we have made each hour in between. And now we give the last
five minutes of our waking day to the decision with which we awoke. As
every hour passed, we have declared our choice again in a brief quiet
time devoted to maintaining sanity. And finally we close the day with
this, acknowledging we chose but what we want:
*Heaven is the decision I must make.
I make it now and will not change my mind,
Because it is the only thing I want*.