It can be but myself I crucify.
It can be but myself I crucify.
When this is firmly understood and kept in full awareness,
you will not attempt to harm yourself nor make your body slave to
vengeance. You will not attack yourself, and you will realize that to
attack another is but to attack yourself. You will be free of the insane
belief that to attack a brother saves yourself. And you will understand
his safety is your own, and in his healing you are healed.
Perhaps at first you will not understand how mercy,
limitless and with all things held in its sure protection, can be found
in the idea we practice for today. It may in fact appear to be a sign
that punishment can never be escaped because the ego, under what it sees
as threat, is quick to cite the truth to save its lies. Yet must it fail
to understand the truth it uses thus. But you can learn to see these
foolish applications and deny the meaning they appear to have.
Thus do you also teach your mind that you are not an ego.
For the ways in which the ego would distort the truth will not deceive
you longer. You will not believe you are a body to be crucified. And you
will see within today's idea the light of resurrection, looking past all
thoughts of crucifixion and of death to thoughts of liberation and of
life.
Today's idea is one step we take in leading us from bondage
to the state of perfect freedom. Let us take this step today that we may
quickly go the way salvation shows us, taking every step in its
appointed sequence as the mind relinquishes its burdens one by one. It
is not time we need for this. It is but willingness. And what would seem
to need a thousand years can easily be done in just one instant by the
grace of God.
The dreary, hopeless thought that you can make attacks on
others and escape yourself has nailed you to the cross. Perhaps it
seemed to be salvation. Yet it merely stood for the belief the fear of
God is real. And what is that but hell? Who could believe his Father is
his deadly enemy, separate from him and waiting to destroy his life and
blot him from the universe, without the fear of hell upon his heart?
Such is the form of madness you believe if you accept the
fearful thought you can attack another and be free yourself. Until this
form is changed, there is no hope. Until you see that this, at least,
must be entirely impossible, how could there be escape? The fear of God
is real to anyone who thinks this thought is true. And he will not
perceive its foolishness nor even see that it is there so that it would
be possible to question it.
To question it at all, its form must first be changed at
least as much as will permit fear of retaliation to abate and the
responsibility returned to some extent to you. From there you can at
least consider if you want to go along this painful path. Until this
shift has been accomplished, you cannot perceive that it is but your
thoughts that bring you fear and your deliverance depends on you.
Our next steps will be easy if you take this one today.
From there we go ahead quite rapidly. For once you understand it is
impossible that you be hurt except by your own thoughts, the fear of God
must disappear. You do not now believe that fear is caused without. And
God, Whom you had thought to banish, can be welcomed back within the
holy mind He never left.
Salvation's song can certainly be heard in the idea we
practice for today. If it can but be you you crucify, you did not hurt
the world and need not fear its vengeance and pursuit. Nor need you hide
in terror from the deadly fear of God projection hides behind. The thing
you dread the most is your salvation. You are strong, and it is strength
you want. And you are free and glad of freedom. You have sought to be
both weak and bound because you feared your strength and freedom. Yet
salvation lies in them.
There is an instant in which terror seems to grip your
mind so wholly that escape appears quite hopeless. When you realize once
and for all that it is you you fear, the mind perceives itself as split.
And this had been concealed while you believed attack could be directed
outward and returned from outside to within. It seemed to be an enemy
outside you had to fear. And thus a god outside yourself became your
mortal enemy—the source of fear.
Now for an instant is a murderer perceived within you,
eager for your death, intent on plotting punishment for you until the
time when it can kill at last. Yet in this instant is the time as well
in which salvation comes. For fear of God has disappeared. And you can
call on Him to save you from illusions in His Love, calling Him Father
and yourself His Son. Pray that the instant may be soon—today. Step back
from fear and make advance to love.
There is no thought of God that does not go with you to
help you reach that instant and to go beyond it quickly, surely, and
forever. When the fear of God is gone, there are no obstacles that still
remain between you and the holy peace of God. How kind and merciful is
the idea we practice! Give it welcome, as you should, for it is your
release. It is indeed but you your mind can try to crucify. Yet your
redemption, too, will come from you.